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Boiled Like Lobster (Not Me)-Poem by Bradford Middleton
Black Summer-Poem by Wayne F. Burke
14 Days-Poem by Ann Marie Rhiel
Lives Alone-Poem by Kenneth James Crist
My Palimpsest-Poem by Leon Fedolfi
I Lay with Tigers-Poem by Dr. Mel Waldman
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The Poem as a Bouquet of Broken Glass-Poem by John Sweet
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Boston Common-Poem by Michael Keshigian
Along the River-Poem by Holly Day
The Voyager-Poem by Holly Day
All Points from Zermatt-Poem by Henry Bladon
Lost Letters-Poem by Henry Bladon
Black Throat-Poem by John Tustin
Working It All Out-Poem by John Tustin
The Brutality and Terror-Poem by John Tustin
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The Lover-Poem by Marc Carver
Metier-Poem by Marc Carver
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True Love-Poem by David Spicer
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Green Lasers-Poem by Daniel G. Snethen
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Dark Tales from Gent's Pens

WORKING IT ALL OUT

 

by John Tustin

 

 

Sometimes I’m jerking off

And it’s the third time that day

So it’s more work than pleasure

And I recall for a moment

Once when the hand pulling on my cock

Was not mine

And how much better that felt.

It stops me from what I’m doing

 

And I pull up my pants and make a cup of coffee instead.

 

I sit in my chair with the steam coming from the cup

And I have a sip

Then I put the side of the cup to my cheek

And revel in its warmth,

Remembering someone kissing my cheek, nuzzling me

And then kissing my mouth

And suddenly my lips are pressed to the side of the cup

With my upper lip over the rim

And I get so sad thinking about kissing

That I can’t drink the coffee any more

 

So I decide to go to sleep

But, lying there alone with my arm around the pillow–

Well, you know what that makes me think about.

 

At this point I can’t sleep

So I pull down my pants

And get back to working it all out

Like I was trying to do

In the first place,

Damn it.

 

 

John Tustin's poetry has appeared in many literary journals in the last dozen in years, including Chiron Review, Underground Voices, and Rhino. fritzware.com/johntustinpoetry contains links to his published poetry online.

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