THE OLD HOUSE
by Dr. Mel Waldman
(on reading Margaret Atwood’s
poem “The Door”)
& beyond the old
house looms in my mind’s eye & I see
the flowing cliffs & the turquoise sea below & now I watch myself rush
slowly up the winding path in winter’s wind & snow to the antediluvian home
that opens up for me & I enter.
house is human-less, a labyrinth of gorgeous glittering rooms, a desert of
opalescence without life, & within this vastness of French windows &
doors, secret rooms, attics, & spiral staircases, I drift through the
vacant house & discover a decrepit wooden door that does not belong here.
There, on the other side of this Lilliputian threshold, I shall know.
The creaky door
opens. I enter. A swirling blackness swallows me. I find a light switch. Click.
& there is light. Down the stairs & into a dusty basement I go. &
now I know.
this mirrored room,
I remove my mask, breathe freely, and gaze into my past. I see folks dining in
restaurants sharing food, holy breaths &
air; going to work, coming home; time off-time out, summer vacations &
trips, concerts, movies, & Broadway shows; or a walk in the park-lovers
touching, tasting succulent lips-love sacredly entwined.
I taste the vastness
of loss. Trapped in Bizarro Country, I gaze through a mirrored universe,
longing for the past & dreaming of tomorrow’s exit.
Mel Waldman is a psychologist, poet,
and writer whose stories have appeared in numerous magazines including
HARDBOILED DETECTIVE, ESPIONAGE, THE SAINT, PULP METAL MAGAZINE, and AUDIENCE.
His poems have been widely published in magazines and books including A NEW
ULSTER, CLOCKWISE CAT, CRAB FAT LITERARY MAGAZINE, ESKIMO PIE, INDIANA VOICE
JOURNAL, LIQUID IMAGINATION, THE BROOKLYN LITERARY REVIEW, BRICKPLIGHT, SKIVE
ODDBALL MAGAZINE, PABLO LENNIS, POETRY
PACIFIC, POETICA, RED FEZ, SQUAWK BACK, SWEET ANNIE & SWEET PEA REVIEW, THE
JEWISH LITERARY JOURNAL, THE JEWISH PRESS, THE JERUSALEM POST, HOTMETAL PRESS,
MAD SWIRL, HAGGARD & HALLOO, ASCENT ASPIRATIONS, YELLOW MAMA, THE BITCHIN’
KITSCH, SOUL-LIT, TWO DROPS OF INK, and NAMASTE FIJI: THE INTERNATIONAL
ANTHOLOGY OF POETRY. A past winner of the literary GRADIVA AWARD in
Psychoanalysis, he was nominated for a PUSHCART PRIZE in literature and is the
author of 11 books.
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who looks like a Mob Wife & talks like Anybody’s from West Side Story.
She works out 5-6 days a week, so needs no excuse to drink or do whatever the hell she
wants She’s been published in the usual places, such as Shotgun Honey, Hardboiled,
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and Rock and a Hard Place. She is the editor/art director of the ezine, Yellow
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