Jericho
by Leon
Marks
In
Krakow’s rynek, thousands waved
banners, faces painted with the flag, chants becoming roars, an echo like
thunder off the charming, colored facades lining the square. It was the
Independence March. Bóg, Honor, Ojczyzna!
God, Honor, Homeland! Around the country, almost a million Poles, so the media
had reported, stood arm in arm to barricade international borders, a collective
act of resistance to the enemy. From the Baltic to Belarus, from Korczawa to
Grzechotki, highways of hands, palms out front, raised up to signal to the
border’s other side: “No!” Commentators throughout Europe imagined a human
perimeter, a human chain snaking along the border in its entirety, each link
inextricable from the next, a wall greater than China’s, visible from outer
space. Handfuls of counter-protesters had arrived to try to redirect tiny
fractions of the energy to their own causes. Climate change. Animal rights. Gay
rights.
The land
of the Poles was a land of pride and self-protection, and more than a little
paranoia. Every Pole—elderly, youthful, rural, urban, rich, poor — knew the
risks of letting one’s guard down. Invaded from the north, conquered from the
east, kidnapped and slaughtered from the west, more blood per capita —
especially severed capita — had been shed in this land than almost anywhere
else in the past few centuries. Every little son and daughter had listened in
fright as painful memories were handed down. Every great-grandparent entered
the room to pinch the young when they became too comfortable with their home,
their family, their savings in the bank.
The French
say Poles are backward. The Russians say they’re weak. The Swedes call them
fascists, the Germans — of all people — bigots. Everyone says Poles are cold,
they’ve closed themselves off, they’ve locked themselves in their churches,
they are stuck in time, they simply must get on with it. The Poles reject these
calumnies with faint indignation and quiet amazement because all these
name-callers — and many more so-called civilized nations — have abundant Polish
blood on their hands. They were the
murderers, Poles say. They were
the barbarians. And now they
are the weak and the foolhardy, inviting foreign cultures to trample their own,
admitting foreign crusaders to ransack their land. It will be their blood this
time. Open your gates wide and let it be.
As Dumy
pushed his babka’s wheelchair toward
the brick towers of St. Mary’s,
she commanded, annoyed, in sharp Polish, “Spowolnic!”
Cracks in the pavement rattled the wheels and shook her fragile body in the seat,
her veined claws clinging to the arms. Dumy was rushing, but there was no
reason for it. Mass would begin at 5:15 and end at six no matter what time they
arrived. When mass ended, he would wheel her over to Cloth Hall so she could
see the jewelry and crafts, and especially the bright red silk scarf she so
admired, which Dumy had promised to buy for her once he got them caught up on
rent. Then he would wheel her home to their basement flat where she would fill
the cat’s bowl in the closet where it hid all day, heat up her dumplings and
watch television for the rest of the night.
That would leave him fifteen minutes to bathe before meeting his date at
7:30. He would have time. And even if he showed up late, so what? This one
would wait all night if necessary.
In Polish,
Dumy’s name meant pride, but he didn’t feel particularly proud of anything.
Besides, the meaning was mere accident. He was named after a village, a speck
barely detectable on any map, close to the Ukrainian border. It was his
grandmother’s birthplace long before she migrated to the city. Decades later,
she had accepted that she’d have to raise the boy, so she took responsibility
for naming him too. Her daughter Aniya, Dumy’s mother, had died of a drug
overdose only a few weeks after his birth, and until then the child had gone
nameless. Aniya had had no way of knowing which customer was the boy’s father,
so she had wanted him gone, but the fall of communism had meant the fall of
abortion, so any safe form of that option was impossible, which had relieved babka
to such an extent that, upon
Dumy’s birth, she traveled to Jasna Gora two hours away, newborn in hand, to
pray in gratitude to the blessed black Madonna. Now, at 17 years old, Dumy had
inherited his mother’s livelihood, if not her chemical dependence, but he had
the luxury of technology, so his work was safer, more selective, much more
profitable. When he thought about his mother, which was rare, he felt sad for
her, that she walked the streets, got beat up, got hooked on drugs, probably had
to beg for business. It was different today. And it was different for Dumy. He
had always known men desired him. Some
men, in fact, he could drive crazy even before shaking a hand or saying a word.
This power alone, however, would not have been enough. He’d combined it with
his brain power to maximize income and minimize risk. Discretion was essential
in the land of the Poles. Dumy had learned to dodge hazards, screen customers,
slip discreetly into hotels and clubs for assignations.
Inside the
cathedral, Dumy rested the chair in the center aisle and hugged it to the pew
next to where he took a seat. The rear of the nave was packed with foreign
tourists as always. Some snapped photographs with a flash, despite the signs.
Many waited to catch a glimpse of the priest and the opening notes of the
processional hymn, and then they’d wander back outside, content with their
brief visit with the divine. This morning’s hymn was “Witaj Krolowo Nieba”
and the congregation of blond and gray heads
joined in, especially babka, who
always sang off key but surely didn’t care, her faint off-key voice never
rising to the ceiling vaults with the others; she was singing just for herself.
And for God.
After the
homily, Dumy began his silent prayers. He didn’t like waiting until after the
Eucharist like everyone else did; instead, he prayed while the priest prepared
the sacrifice, the host. He prayed for his safety. He prayed for babka’s
health. He prayed for enough
money to get caught up on rent. He even prayed for his grandmother’s cat, that
it would come out from the closet, that it would lose its fear of the humans in
the house and the world at large. It was a foundling, so who knows what trauma
it had endured before babka brought
it home? But a smelly closet was no home. The cat deserved as much light and
space as the humans had, so Dumy prayed that it would come out.
Then, he
confessed his sins.
#
It was
strange for the date, with all his millions, to have taken a room in such an
ordinary hotel in a district as dull as the Zablocie.
The bald, tall, 55-year-old man parked his car a block from the Oskar Schindler
Factory, which was now a museum, and they walked another block to the
nondescript, rectangular building with a plain lobby and a two-person elevator.
The man’s name was Arthur, and he had learned a few Polish words, including
piękne, or “beautiful,” which Dumy
found endearing at first, but tiresome after Arthur overused it during sex.
Dumy had taught himself enough English to converse with American and British customers.
He wasn’t fluent, as his on-line profile claimed, but he was proficient enough
to make plans, make small talk and make love. For better or worse, Arthur
wanted to make love. Most customers were cold or crude or kinky, but not
Arthur, just like the last time he was here. Married to a woman in a place
called Missouri, he had four daughters — Dumy clearly played the role of the
son he always wanted but, thank God, never had — and was CEO of one of the
world’s largest scientific research companies.
Just like last time, he was in town for a conference of “important
people” from around the world. Unlike last time, however, all these important
people were staying in the same hotel, where they conferred all day and dined
at night and were discouraged from leaving the premises at all. Arthur had sneaked
out and taken a second
hotel room specifically to meet Dumy.
“We come
here because you are embarrassed by me?” Dumy joked.
“Never,”
Arthur said, holding him from behind.
“Maybe
tomorrow? I can be quiet like mouse.”
This made
Arthur radiate with pleasure, to hear this beautiful boy suggest a second night
even before the first was over.
“It’s
a
sensitive meeting this time. No outsiders allowed, but maybe I can hide you
under my coat.”
After a
second round of sex, Dumy sat naked at the writing desk. Normally, this was
when he slowly reached for his clothes to indicate the night was winding down.
It had to be carefully calculated, however, because some customers wanted
conversation — afterward, of course — and were willing to pay for it. Arthur
was kind, so conversation wouldn’t be a chore if he wanted it.
He did.
Over the
next fifteen minutes, Dumy answered Arthur’s questions with exaggerations and
half-truths, claiming his favorite subject at school was history, his dream was
to be a soccer star, he loved Grizzly bears (this part was true), he had a
girlfriend once, but not at present. He talked about his faith while fingering
the gold cross around his neck. He talked about his grandmother and her
Parkinson’s Disease — this information would surely elicit an even larger tip —
and how he took care of all the grocery shopping and escorted her to Saturday
vigil every week and how he wished her cat weren’t so afraid.
Dumy knew
that customers who wanted to talk mainly wanted to talk about themselves, so he
turned the tables before too long.
“And you?”
Dumy said. “Tell about...you.”
Unlike
last time, Arthur shared nothing about his wife or his daughters. He spoke only
of his job — even scanning his phone several times — and the pressure he had
been under. The conference here in
Krakow was “very important” and was attended by “very important” men. They were
the chief executives of the other major research and testing companies in
Europe, Russia, China, America.
“You are
nervous,” Dumy said.
Arthur
thought about it and nodded reluctantly.
“Why?
Business is bad?”
“Nothing
like that,” he said.
That’s
when Arthur told Dumy about the death threats. He and his peers were used to
the shouts and stunts of radical protesters, of groups like Greenpeace, opposed
to research on animals. They were used to their public relations departments
receiving emails from frightened children and psychotic eco-terrorists and
everyone in between. The most recent spate of threats, however, were far
different in their scope and consistency. These threats were as rational as
they were explicit and were sent to the heads of dozens of corporations like
Arthur’s, all in the same week. Two months later, another round of threats was
sent by the same figures to the same executives. Two months later, another
round.
“What
do
they threat?” Dumy asked.
“Violence,”
Arthur said. “Bombs. Death to our employees and to our families. You name it.”
This
week’s agenda was dedicated to a collective and coordinated response. Experts
in public relations, public affairs, law enforcement and crisis management were
being flown in to advise on an industry-wide plan. That’s why they had taken
over a hotel but were forbidden to disclose the name or location to anyone, not
even their spouses.
“We even
hired security guards,” Arthur said. “Together, our companies do about 90
percent of all the testing around the world.”
Dumy
nodded as if he understood what that meant. He noticed Arthur staring at the
scattered lights of Krakow through the window.
“They
just
try to scare you,” Dumy said, approaching him for a hug. “Don’t worry. I keep
you safe.”
#
“How’d
it
go last night?” Pietrov asked from behind the bar the next day.
It was
five o’clock “Happy Hour,” and Dumy had just arrived at BJ, a gay dive bar
where Pietrov had worked every Sunday since graduating from university, a
famous meeting place for rent boys and their clients, a neutral stop on the way
to an apartment or hotel room. A half-dozen bored-looking patrons sat on
stools. Just a few weeks earlier, Pietrov, who had bulging chest muscles and
thick blond eyebrows that looked like they were made of wicker, had been
promoted from bartender to Sunday shift manager, which merely meant he could be
left to run the bar on his own. He’d gotten to know Dumy last year when he’d
first started arriving with older men. Pietrov knew he was underage, but he
liked him, so welcomed him. Besides, he knew Dumy had never drunk alcohol and
had no plans to start.
“He’s
still in love,” Dumy said without looking up from his phone, where he was
checking his bank balance. “And still has lots of money.”
The other
day, when Pietrov had asked how business was going, Dumy told him about his
forthcoming reunion with Arthur. He’d told him that he was an American, that he
was a big CEO of a big research firm in town for a big conference.
“That
an
engagement ring?”
Pietrov
had noticed the small, paper bag folded in Dumy’s hand. He had stopped at Cloth
Hall that afternoon and finally purchased the red silk scarf for babka. Two nights
with Arthur was a
windfall, and babka had waited long
enough.
“They
were
here earlier,” Pietrov said sheepishly while drying a glass. “Sorry, man.” He
stared over Dumy’s shoulder.
In had
walked two characters, one of whom Dumy had known casually for years but lately
tried to avoid. Unfortunately, he was walking straight toward the bar, eyes
locked on Dumy’s. His name was Pawel and he was the older brother of one of
Dumy’s school friends. Dumy had been to his home many times, had met his
loud-mouthed, orange-haired mother, and had lost to him at video games once or
twice. He had grown up to become an annoying animal rights activist whose
preaching usually turned to shouting. He forced pamphlets in hands, stalked the
still-not-converted on-line, solicited donations or rally attendance in every
conversation. Pawel’s mood shifted from cheerful to angry at the blink of an
eye, depending on the reaction, and he sometimes appeared to be high. His dyed
white hair was cut short, his face pale and unadorned, and he dressed plainly
aside from chunky silver rings on all ten fingers and thick black boots so he
would appear taller. His eye contact with Dumy was distracted, as if he were
self-conscious in front of the second man, whom Pawel introduced as Jozue.
Compared to Pawel, Jozue was much older and much taller, easily six and a half
feet. He had a dozen silver rings pierced through his lower lip, tattoos on his
neck and eyelids, a narrow nose whose tip pointed toward the floor, a scruffy
beard that climbed up high on his cheeks, punctuated eyes from thick black
eyeliner, and five-inch holes in his ear lobes, which had been stretched to the
limit by gages and now dangled on his shoulders like rotten meat.
“I need
your help,” said Pawel.
“Want
me
join a march or something?” Dumy asked.
“We
shouldn’t talk here. Jozue’s place is on the next block. Will you come?”
“I’d
rather not,” Dumy said.
“It’s
about the guy you were with last night. Just need a few minutes.”
Dumy
thought of Arthur in his hotel bed, waking up alone this morning, driving back
to the secret hotel by himself, sneaking inside at five in the morning like a
criminal. Then, Dumy thought of Pietrov, who was avoiding making eye contact
with him. How the hell would Dumy’s clients come up in casual conversation? It
felt shady.
“Come
on,
man. Just hear me out. You can say no.”
“Fine,”
Dumy said.
The street
was quiet except for loiterers at the intersections.
“Pietrov’s
been shooting his mouth off?” Dumy asked to no one in particular.
Without
responding, they walked ahead. Loud music pulsed from a second story apartment
with broken windows. A girl was screaming a few houses down, maybe from
laughter, but it was impossible to tell.
They
arrived at a bland, box-like, concrete edifice, which looked like it came
straight off the communist assembly line. Dumy followed them inside and up
three sets of stairs with flickering light bulbs. He knew Pawel was harmless,
but this Jozue was another story. He wished he had brought his knife. Just in
case.
Inside was
a studio apartment with one window, a bed, a desk and a bench. The furniture,
however, was practically invisible next to the ossified wallpaper. From floor
to ceiling, every inch of wall space was covered with bones and skulls and
horns, some tiny, as if from a bird, some enormous, as if from a bull. They
appeared to be glued together, organized in no particular pattern. The room was
a catacomb, a font of death, a necropolis of the natural world, animals staring
and pointing and castigating all who enter. When Dumy partially closed his eyes
to blur his vision, the walls looked like black and white checkerboard, but the
animals sprung back to death when he opened wide again. A few dominant,
disk-shaped bones — the pelvises of extra-large mammals — caught his attention
down close to the floor. They looked fresh and durable, not on the brink of
disintegration like the rest. They were either fake or fresh off the carcass.
“I thought
you were animal rights warriors,” Dumy said simply to fill the silence. “All
these guys are dead.”
He was
surprised there was no smell.
“Bones
are
nature,” Pawel said coyly. “Jo’s a naturalist.”
Jozue
nodded, studying his wall. “When one
dies, so dies the other.” His voice was a soft baritone, strong but
nonthreatening. Dumy recognized the words.
Pawel
gestured for Dumy to sit on the bench. “Listen,” he said. Immediately down to
business.
Pawel did
most of the talking. For several years, Jozue had led a coalition — he called
it an “army” of “comrades” — called Promised Land, which was dedicated to
ending the exploitation of animals for human profit, specifically the breeding
of animals for laboratory testing, and certain death, in food, drugs, cosmetics
and other industries. He had organized dozens of protests and marches and
graffiti campaigns all around Poland, which is how he and Pawel had met. Dumy
recalled the group’s frequent stunts, often right outside St. Mary’s, always
drowned out by jeers. According to Pawel, however, grassroots campaigning had
proved feckless: the problem was the entire system that allowed the world’s
corporations to outsource their cruelty to testing labs. There was a whole
economy of animal production and destruction, the treatment of lives as
objects, the dismissal of pain as instinct, the annihilation of sadness and
compassion as unnecessary human responses that could be conditioned out of us
for the “greater good.”
Dumy had
listened respectfully. Pawel was clearly knowledgeable and extremely
articulate, but it was Jozue’s observation of Pawel’s speech that was slightly
unsettling. His eyes were green and calm and didn’t blink once as he listened,
but all his muscles visibly contracted up and down his body. As if he were an
animal below the neck, all his animal instincts warring against the human
reason in his head, and reason was losing.
Pawel continued: “A dozen men, all the guys
who run the largest testing labs, are here in Krakow. Your customer last night:
he’s one of them. He’s here for a global conference. They’re all here. The
world’s largest breeder of dogs for torture. The top importer of primates for
conducting experiments that make them go crazy, pull out all their hair, eat
their own flesh. They’re all here for this meeting. We’ve known about it. We
just haven’t known where.”
Dumy
nodded, then looked down at his sneakers.
“And you
want me to tell you,” he said.
“Please,”
Pawel confirmed.
“We’re
not
going there. He took a room downtown for...our meeting.”
“Are you
seeing him again tonight?”
Dumy
didn’t answer.
“Ask him
where the conference is.”
“He won’t
tell me. He won’t even tell his wife. It’s all top secret because you’ve got
them scared.”
“He told
you
that?” Pawel asked eagerly.
“That’s
what the conference is about. How to respond.”
Pawel and
Jozue seemed to share a beam of pride.
“You’re
the ones threatening to kill ‘em?“ Dumy asked. “What’s your plan, anyway? Why
the hell do you need their hotel?”
The men
glanced at each other calmly. Jozue seemed to nod permission to Pawel.
“Surveillance,”
Pawel said.
“Surveillance?
Of what?”
“We want
to get in there and get undercover video of the meeting. Footage of private
conversations, planning sessions. We need to get their strategy.”
“Undercover?
No offense, but you two aren’t exactly the type that blends in.”
Jozue
cracked a peaceful smile through his whiskers.
“Let us
handle that,” Pawel said. “We just need to get in to plant a few cameras, some
recording equipment.”
“Nah,”
said Dumy, preparing to rise from the bench. “I don’t think so, boys.”
“Dumy.”
It was the
soft baritone of Jozue. It was a plea for him to reconsider. The tall, quiet
man and his bearded face replaced Pawel now, coming close and crouching before
Dumy with sad, longing eyes.
“They
drop
toxic chemicals in the eyes of cats and make them worthless,” he said, then
closed his eyes for a moment as if to picture it. “God said, when you sacrifice
a blind animal, is that
not wrong?”
So, Pawel
had told him that Dumy’s a Bible thumper. Say
it in the voice of God, Dumy could hear Pawel saying.
“They
implant food restriction devices into dogs so they become so emaciated they can
no longer walk.” This time Jozue’s eyes remained open, so Dumy looked closely
into the green pools and discovered that through the layers of paraphernalia,
the punctured flesh, the woolly beard, he was handsome.
“God said, when you
sacrifice a lame animal, is that not
wrong?”
Dumy
nodded but wasn’t conscious of doing it.
Jozue
tapped his phone and held it up for Dumy to watch. Somber music played before
the first image appeared: undercover video footage of a trash can filled with
dead piglets, flies crawling on their faces, necks snapped, unwanted inventory
at a corporate lab. Next was a metal stall filled with pigs, one on its side in
the middle, squealing and kicking, suffering an unspecified injury or disease
while the other pigs charged at it, bit at it, graphics stating, in Polish,
“Diseased pig left defenseless for 40 hours.” Next was a counter containing a
row of enclosed hot plates, half a dozen mice released in each enclosure as the
dial is turned up as high as 60 degrees centigrade, slowly, over time lapse,
the mice scratching at the enclosure walls, standing on hind feet, their
squeaks more like screams.
Dumy’s
heart dropped into his stomach, and he was beginning to feel ill. He brushed
away the phone.
“Who...”
said Jozue slowly. “Who are they to inflict cruelty?”
Jozue
tilted his head so one ear lobe nestled in his beard. His stare penetrated
Dumy’s resistance without blinking as if asking Dumy to let his reason fall
away and instead embrace something more like love, like spirit.
“When one dies, so dies the other,” Jozue
whispered.
Dumy felt
another shudder just thinking about the charging pigs. And the burning mice.
“Enough,”
he said. He rose and exited.
#
Babka was napping when
Dumy returned home. He pulled a carton of milk from the icebox and poured some
in a glass for himself, then poured some in a small bowl. In a second bowl he
poured dried cat food. Normally, he would open the coat closet door and place
the bowls inside, and the contents would be gone in the morning. Tonight, he
decided to set them in the hallway, six feet away from the closet door. Maybe
tonight could be different. Maybe the cat would leave the dark on its own for
once. Dumy slid his back down the wall, sat on the floor and sighed. The bag
with babka’s scarf hung on a doorknob
a few feet away, the tail of red fabric dripping over the side. He had about
two hours before he was due to meet Arthur. He thought about the pigs. That one
stuck in his mind the most. The way they left the maimed one inside the pen and
just watched as it was attacked. And the mice jumping on the hot plate; thank
God there was no audio on that one. Thank God. Dear God. My God, what do I do? Trust
in the Lord with all your heart and
lean not on your own understanding.
Then something shocking
happened.
The closet door inched open, as
if moved by a breeze or a ghost, and out walked the cat. It didn’t look timid
or afraid. On the contrary, it glided over to the bowl of milk as if it were
nothing unusual. As the cat lapped, Dumy studied its profile, its little
cone-shaped ears, noticing the brilliant orange stripes buried deep in its
silver-gray fur as if for the first time. He smelled a fresh litter box deposit
inside the closet and made a note to clean it later. The cat took a break from
the milk, and rather than move on to food, it glided toward Dumy and rubbed its
head against his thigh. It was purring. Is it possible the cat had never purred
before? Never in its life? This was a fresh sound, never produced before, never
heard before. A feeling never felt before. Dumy scratched between its ears,
then retrieved the phone from his pocket and dialed.
“I don’t want you recording
Arthur. I don’t want you anywhere near his room with your equipment or your
cameras. I don’t want him showing up on any of your footage. I don’t want you
embarrassing him or hurting him. Stay away from him and we can do this.
Otherwise, fuck you.”
Pawel was silent on the other
end. He was taken aback. Finally, “Thank you,” Pawel said. “Agreed, of course.
But how will we know him? We might bug some of the rooms, so how will we know
which room is his?”
As if it had waved for his
attention, Dumy spied the red scarf peeking from the paper bag. Babka
could wait one more day.
#
Dumy had
arranged for Arthur to pick him up at BJ, but rather than waiting inside, he
stood on the sidewalk, hands in pockets, wearing his customary blank,
uninterested expression to avoid being mistaken for a common hooker. Across
Podolsk Avenue and down a half block idled Jozue’s car, a green sedan at least
20 years old; he and Pawel had been waiting 20 minutes already, eager to pull
out and follow at the first sign. Jozue had flipped on his yellow parking
lights, which annoyed Dumy as they were unnecessary and might attract
attention.
Less than
a minute later, Dumy was seated inside a silver, four-door Toyota rental car
with Arthur’s right hand on his knee.
“You can
change the music if you want,” Arthur said.
“It’s
good.” It was a soft male vocalist, an American singer Dumy had never heard
before. “I want to change plans. I want to see the nice hotel.”
Arthur
smiled, surprised at Dumy’s directness.
“I don’t
know. We’ll have more privacy at—”
“You
ashamed?”
Arthur
laughed half-heartedly.
“Please
let me see it,” Dumy whispered as he leaned in and began sucking on Arthur’s
ear and stroking him between his legs.
The purpose of this wasn’t only to delight Arthur, but also to steal a
discreet glance behind the car. Jozue’s car was no longer alone. Two more cars
and a van had appeared behind him, idling and waiting, the four vehicles
prepared to travel as a unit. Dumy hadn’t thought to ask if other comrades
would be joining, but that
looked to be the case and made him more nervous.
The drive
seemed to go by quickly, or maybe Dumy’s heart was racing. They were no longer
in Krakow but had entered a neighboring town with several tall church steeples
and some sort of public building made out of brick. They drove through the
central square, which was small and quiet, a few diners or drinkers exiting
restaurants.
“It’s
called the Skawinka,” Arthur disclosed coyly.
“On the
river?” Dumy asked.
“Near
it.”
“That’s
the name of the river,” Dumy said.
Arthur took a side street that curved a
half mile through rows of box-like, single-family homes and then another half
mile through increasingly thick forest until taking a left into a driveway
lined by enormous pine trees on both sides.
At the end
of the driveway was a small parking lot to the right, surrounded by woods, as
was the inn, a Gothic structure of stone walls, arched windows and wrought-iron
tracery, a tower on the far end and an unmanned valet station at the front
entrance, a small spotlight on “Skawinka” carved in stone above the door.
Architecturally, it might have fit in nicely in historic Krakow, but out here,
it felt like driving into a dream.
“Lovely,
isn’t it?” Arthur asked as he parked. “Apparently very few people know about
this place.”
As they
crossed a footbridge from the parking lot toward the inn, Dumy glanced toward
the driveway. Fortunately, no headlights were approaching right now. Jozue must
have pulled over to plot their approach.
It was
already after eleven o’clock, so the lobby — small with a vermilion carpet and
iron sconces — was almost abandoned. A middle-aged woman stood behind the
reception desk, barely acknowledging their arrival. A short, stocky man in a
uniform sat on a cushioned bench on the far side of the lobby. He wore a
holster with a pistol and a radio. Another uniformed man stood at the end of a
hallway that separated the lobby from the rear door to the hotel. Both men
looked bored. The hired security.
“Two-sixteen
please,” said Arthur nonchalantly, and the woman handed him his silver key with
a white ribbon for a key chain. Arthur was acting supremely confident, even
though Dumy knew he must have been terrified of bumping into a business
associate. There’s only one explanation for a man bringing a strange teen-aged
boy to his hotel room.
They
passed a large conference room, its doors propped open to reveal rows of empty
chairs in the dark. They walked up one noisy flight of stairs, ventilation
equipment roaring from the other side of the wall. When Arthur finally unlocked
his door, it didn’t take five seconds before he was pawing and kissing and
growling, so they fell onto the bed.
When the
first act was finished, Arthur went to use the bathroom while Dumy waited in
the dark. The window blinds were open, letting in the gauze of moonlight that
made it through the canopy of trees just outside. The hotel looked smaller
inside, had no more than 15 or 20 rooms, and was quiet as if every guest other
than Arthur was already sound asleep. Dumy pictured these guests sleeping in
their sheets, and he felt his heart drop in his chest. He wished he’d taken
more time to think about it. He could have given Jozue and Pawel the name of
the hotel tomorrow. It was too quiet now, like the building itself was
sleeping, not prepared for pranks, like everything here was too sacred to
withstand the disruption that was coming.
Naked from
the waist down, Dumy removed the red scarf from his jacket pocket, quietly
opened the door and tied it to the knob on the other side. He walked back to
bed, feeling very uneasy. It was more than uneasiness; he was suddenly afraid.
What had he he done? He’d opened the metaphorical gate for Jozue and Pawel and
their comrades to pass right through. They were coming to violate this sacred
place. He didn’t know how exactly, but they were on their way.
To calm
himself, Dumy recalled the images which had so upset him just hours earlier.
The monkeys. The pigs. Recalling their grotesque circumstances and the evil
that exists in human beings to afflict them in that way was a helpful reminder.
It was evil. Evil was acting upon those poor creatures and just because the
perpetrators were asleep in their cozy beds in this silent, moonlit inn, a
brook babbling under the footbridge outside, that doesn’t erase their sins.
Arthur
returned, smelling of cologne. He came from behind to hold Dumy in his arms,
but just as he began to squeeze his nipples, Dumy said in his broken English:
“I wish you to stop.”
So, Arthur
did.
“Not
that,” Dumy said. He turned around to
find the man’s nervous face. He looked as if he’d been caught misbehaving.
“The
testing. I wish you can stop. I wish you can find a different kind of work.”
Arthur may
have been touched by Dumy’s earnestness, but what he expressed outwardly was
contrition. This wasn’t the first time this request had been made of him. He
closed his eyes and leaned back against the headboard, inhaling deeply. He had
a big heart, that much Dumy knew. He was sensitive and he was a good man, too
good for those videos on Jozue’s phone.
“I will,”
he said. And Dumy believed him.
After
having sex again, Dumy laid his head on the pillow next to Arthur’s and pulled
up the sheet to cover them both. A moment later, Arthur was snoring, which made
Dumy laugh silently. He too was tired, so he closed his eyes and pictured
monkeys in a tree, pigs snorting happily in a pool of mud, sheep grazing on a
hillside, babka’s cat no longer
trapped in the dark, stepping forward, looking both ways, feeling suddenly
ready to explore outside.
#
The news
reports said it happened at 2:35 am.
That was when Jozue and Pawel and six other activists — terrorists, the
news called them — had entered the hotel with Ruger rifles, killing the
security guards instantly but sparing the desk clerk because when they demanded
she give them copies of all the room keys, she did so without hesitation.
They split
into two groups — Jozue’s group took the second-floor keys, Pawel’s the third-floor
keys — and marched from room to room, pumping bullets into each man (and one
woman) who they found inside. Some were sitting up in bed, dazed or frozen,
others were hiding in the bathroom. Iron bars made the windows useless for
escape. One Chinese man had managed to flee his third-floor room at the end of
the corridor, but Pawel gave chase and picked him off outside. He felt
satisfied because he knew exactly who that man was and exactly which company he
ran.
With a
corpse in each room, some nearly blown apart by bullets, the hotel smelled like
fresh blood. On the second floor, the overhead lights flickered and buzzed as
Jozue did a final check to make sure every guest was dead, but, as he’d
promised, he walked wordlessly past room 216 where the red scarf hung from the
doorknob. Had he opened that door, he would have seen two human beings still
alive, one a grown man, his naked body on the bed, draped in a sheet, shaken
and muttering, the other a teen-aged boy, standing naked and erect, statuesque
in the moonlight and studying the door, whispering “We’ll be saved” over and
over until there were no more voices in the corridor, no more footsteps within
earshot, the intruders now walking back to their vehicles.
We’ll be saved.
We’ll be saved.
We’ll be saved.
I knew. I knew they weren’t just
coming to spy. Didn’t I know? I must have known it. I knew it. But I couldn’t
have known it. Is that the smell? Death has a smell. We’ll be saved. Don’t cry.
Arthur, don’t cry now. Yes, be calm. You want me to leave? Is that what you
mean? The news will get out. Yes, the news will get out that you were found
with a male hooker. We’ll be saved. Arthur, you’re crying again. Sobbing,
really. Are we ready to open the door? Am I? Let’s open the door to help the
others. To make sure they’re gone. Here’s the door. The knob is shaking. It’s
in my grasp and it won’t stop shaking. Let’s open it wide. The smell is harsher
out here. Something smells like smoke, like bullets. Whose body is that below
the splash of red on the wall? Arthur, do you know him? Arthur? Don’t worry,
I’m leaving. I can’t get caught here. You won’t get caught, don’t worry. Stop
crying. You’ll be saved. The floor is calling. Let me slide down onto the
floor. Let me sit here just for a moment and see this and smell this and maybe
fall asleep just for a moment, a long moment because I still don’t understand
what’s happened. Babka. Your scarf. It feels very soft. No wonder you loved it.
I’ll bring it to you. I’ll bring it home for you once I’ve slept for a moment
because I don’t understand what is happening or where I am or where I need to
go. Arthur tells me to leave. I’ll be saved. He’ll be saved. But I’m so tired
and need to close my eyes for a moment because I don’t understand.
As Dumy’s
mind tried unsuccessfully to grasp this sudden split in reality, as his shock became
dizziness, as he fell into a kind of trance right there in the doorway, and as
the four vehicles disappeared down the driveway, a wind arrived outside. The
treetops began swaying against the moon, the crickets began chirping again as
they rested on the ground. It was as if the earth had reopened to all its
moving creatures — the birds of the sky, the fish of the sea, the beasts and
the cattle, everything that creeps on the earth — and they all knew that
cruelty had taken a blow, that they were well stewarded tonight, that all of
creation was alive again, and they saw that it was good.