Gloria
Peter Mladinic
Odds
Against Tomorrow in
heaven remade.
You
thought I’d died and gone to hell for
taking
Tony to bed, my fourteen year old
stepson.
Keep in mind Tony’s with me.
Tony,
my scandalous silk sheets lover boy.
Robert
Ryan, Ed Begley and I remade Odds.
I
get to do anything here. Bed a child, this
go
round, I win best supporting actress, tell
the
crowd a meek I’m here, not Thank you.
You
didn’t ruin my career, stepson sex did.
No
matter we married, no matter Tony in
2018
joined me here. This time I ask Bob
Ryan,
not What’s it like to kill, but What’s it
like
to die? Me and men. The Big Heat:
Lee
Marvin with a broken bottle edge
slashes
my looks, I hide in a hotel room,
the
light dim, Glen Ford steps in and holds
my
hand. In my Odds Against Tomorrow
remake
I rephrase my question to Bob
Ryan.
In the original he’s racist through
and
through, his foil young Harry Belafonte.
In
life, Ryan was a Civil Rights marcher,
Harry
and Bob the best of friends. Harry
is
the one actor not in the remake.
To
be in it you must be dead. Harry isn’t.
I
have to laugh at how different Ryan was
in
Odds from the man Ed, Harry, and I
knew
off screen. As for me, I am myself.
In
that scene where Bob accidentally
opens
my silk robe the camera’s close up,
a
low cut bra, really gets your attention.
In
the remake we’ve kept it as it was,
a
steamy moment, me in my womanhood,
what
fourteen year old Tony Ray ogled.
Naked
as Eve I took him inside me.
Peter Mladinic’s fifth book of poems,
Voices from the Past, is forthcoming from Better
Than Starbucks Publications.
An animal rights advocate, he lives in Hobbs, New Mexico, USA.