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John Tustin

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A CHILD

 

by John Tustin

 

A child stands out on a ledge as the sun beats down

In horror and glory.

He stands alone.

 

A child kneels in the dark before a mirror

And then a windowsill,

The moon not smiling, snickering

Or sneering but oblivious.

He kneels alone.

 

A child lies folded up

Beneath the sky and her endless seasons

Of heat, cold, wind and rain.

He lies alone.

 

A child listens to music alone.

A child prays to ghosts alone.

A child feels the flutter of an angel’s wings

As he reaches out and touches nothing.

 

A child sits like a pile of dirty laundry.

The flies buzz and the heavens heave

Whether he wants them to or not.

He sits alone.

 

A child dies

And no mother

Cries.

 

A child

Dies

And no mother cries.

 

A child dies and no mother cries.

 

 

SHROUD

 

by John Tustin

 

Mozart’s Ave verum corpus and the vultures circle

this bed where I make my shrine

to you and to the half-wanted loneliness

and to the death of love

and to the slumber of a living corpse.

May I ask one more thing of you,

woman who has denied my every exhortation?

Can you make a shroud for me?

Can you make it strong and black?

Large and all-encompassing?

Can you make a shroud for my love for you—

this love that dies and dies

but will not be dead?

Don’t just forget me.

Cover me up

and then forget me.

I declaim that I have had enough.

 

 

THE MAKE-UP MAN

 

by John Tustin

 

Every evening

the make-up man

opens her dead eyes,

touches up her dead face,

makes her appear almost alive

lying there beside me in the dark.

 

Her hands

as cold as her ocean of ice,

her eyes like coffin lids,

her kisses dry and motionless

 

but still I hold her hand,

still I look into her eyes,

still I place my lips on her lips

that remain so still.

 

The make-up man,

he lies to me with his hands

when he performs his nightly miracle

with ghostly paint,

opaque fabric,

the perfumes of intrigue

and disguise

 

and I let him

tell me lies

as I lie there

beside where she lies

and I tell her all the things

she wouldn’t let me say

when she was pretending to live

on her own, with me,

without the assistance

of the make-up man.

 

John Tustin’s poetry has appeared in many disparate literary journals since 2009. His first poetry collection from Cajun Mutt Press is now available at https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0C6W2YZDP. fritzware.com/johntustinpoetry contains links to his published poetry online.

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