Writing a novel is
something beyond horror...
Habil Yashar
Writing a novel is
something beyond horror...
First of all, it can
take months, even years, to think about what topic to write about. Just as you
cannot determine when your time will come, you cannot even determine what topic
to write about. It is born suddenly - from the impact that some event or some
person has on you, or from something completely different. Its birth is so
strange that... Perhaps stranger, more mysterious, more mysterious than the
birth of a person... The birth of a person is based on certain laws, but there
are no rules or any order in writing a novel. How can one write something whose
birth is so strange...
Imagine the
difference between the feeling of waiting for the next lines with inexplicable
excitement when you finish the first sentence, and the feeling of seeing the
pages and sheets pile up and finally seeing the completion of a novel... Every
line you write, every line you think is perhaps written at the cost of your
blood, the ink is just a tool. For a writer, the nights spent writing can be so
bright that they don't feel dark, because he is enlightened while writing, he
lives while writing, but at the same time, the mornings can be as shocking as
darkness, because he is always searching for something to write, always
thinking.
It shouldn't be so
easy for you to write the fate of every character you create, to have a shadow
and always follow it no matter where it is. You put so much life into unreal
characters that you don't care about your own life as much as you give it your
all. Because, you, yes, you are responsible for the fate of every character you
create and you bear a great responsibility for every event that has happened to
them or will happen. If non-writers are responsible for their families, and in
a broader sense, humanity, then if writers are responsible for each of the
characters they create (at the same time, they are also responsible to their
families and humanity, like everyone else), imagine the weight of the burden
they carry. Aside from responsibility, writers sacrifice even their health for
them. But in return, they gain the name of a writer, eternity.
Characters dominate
your soul so much that... It's as if they are always around you, in dialogue
with you. Regardless of where and when, they won't let go of you, they'll joke
with you, they can even judge you and make you cry. Because, non-existent
characters actually come to you as if they were real, and sometimes you think
of yourself, not them, but rather as a non-existent being, flowing away like
water.
Perhaps they are
your closest friends, confidants, heroes. Because in each of them there are
sparks of your thoughts, of your energy. But along with all this, you have also
given them freedom, leaving it up to them to choose in everything. Otherwise,
in addition to being a dictatorial writer, you will be remembered as someone
who does not respect their characters... Doesn't the existence of a writer
depend on the perfection of their characters as well as on their works?
Writing is something
beyond horror, just as it is something beyond life.
Habil
Yashar 2020
