Yellow Mama Archives

Ian Mullins
Home
Adhikari, Sudeep
Ahern, Edward
Aldrich, Janet M.
Allan, T. N.
Allen, M. G.
Ammonds, Phillip J.
Anderson, Peter
Andreopoulos, Elliott
Arab, Bint
Augustyn, P. K.
Aymar, E. A.
Babbs, James
Baber, Bill
Bagwell, Dennis
Baird, Meg
Bakala, Brendan
Baker, Nathan
Balaz, Joe
BAM
Barber, Shannon
Bates, Jack
Baugh, Darlene
Bauman, Michael
Baumgartner, Jessica Marie
Beale, Jonathan
Beck, George
Beckman, Paul
Benet, Esme
Bennett, Brett
Bennett, Charlie
Berg, Carly
Berman, Daniel
Bernardara, Will Jr.
Berriozabal, Luis
Beveridge, Robert
Bickerstaff, Russ
Bigney, Tyler
Blake, Steven
Bohem, Charlie Keys and Les
Booth, Brenton
Bougger, Jason
Boyd, A. V.
Boyd, Morgan
Bracey, DG
Brewka-Clark, Nancy
Britt, Alan
Brooke, j
Brown, R. Thomas
Brown, Sam
Burton, Michael
Bushtalov, Denis
Butkowski, Jason
Butler, Simon Hardy
Cameron, W. B.
Campbell, J. J.
Campbell, Jack Jr.
Cano, Valentina
Carlton, Bob
Cartwright, Steve
Carver, Marc
Castle, Chris
Catlin, Alan
Chesler, Adam
Clausen, Daniel
Clevenger, Victor
Clifton, Gary
Coffey, James
Colasuonno, Alfonso
Conley, Jen
Connor, Tod
Cooper, Malcolm Graham
Coral, Jay
Cosby, S. A.
Crandall, Rob
Criscuolo, Carla
Crist, Kenneth
Crouch & Woods
D., Jack
Dallett, Cassandra
Danoski, Joseph V.
Daly, Sean
Davis, Christopher
Day, Holly
de Bruler, Connor
Degani, Gay
De France, Steve
De La Garza, Lela Marie
Deming, Ruth Z.
Demmer, Calvin
De Neve, M. A.
Dennehy, John W.
DeVeau, Spencer
Di Chellis, Peter
Dick, Earl
Dick, Paul "Deadeye"
DiLorenzo, Ciro
Dionne, Ron
Domenichini, John
Dominelli, Rob
Doran, Phil
Doreski, William
Dorman, Roy
Doherty, Rachel
Dosser, Jeff
Doyle, John
Draime, Doug
Drake, Lena Judith
Dromey, John H.
Dubal, Paul Michael
Duke, Jason
Duncan, Gary
Dunham, T. Fox
Duschesneau, Pauline
Dunn, Robin Wyatt
Duxbury, Karen
Duy, Michelle
Elliott, Garnett
Ellman, Neil
England, Kristina
Erianne, John
Espinosa, Maria
Esterholm, Jeff
Fallow, Jeff
Farren, Jim
Fenster, Timothy
Ferraro, Diana
Filas, Cameron
Flanagan, Daniel N.
Flanagan, Ryan Quinn
Francisco, Edward
Funk, Matthew C.
Gann, Alan
Gardner, Cheryl Ann
Garvey, Kevin Z.
Genz, Brian
Giersbach, Walter
Gladeview, Lawrence
Glass, Donald
Goddard, L. B.
Godwin, Richard
Goff, Christopher
Goss, Christopher
Gradowski, Janel
Graham, Sam
Grant, Christopher
Grant, Stewart
Greenberg, K.J. Hannah
Greenberg, Paul
Grey, John
Gunn, Johnny
Gurney, Kenneth P.
Haglund, Tobias
Halleck, Robert
Hamlin, Mason
Hanson, Christopher Kenneth
Hanson, Kip
Harrington, Jim
Harris, Bruce
Hart, GJ
Hartman, Michelle
Haskins, Chad
Hawley, Doug
Haycock, Brian
Hayes, A. J.
Hayes, John
Hayes, Peter W. J.
Heatley, Paul
Heimler, Heidi
Helmsley, Fiona
Hendry, Mark
Heslop, Karen
Heyns, Heather
Hilary, Sarah
Hill, Richard
Hivner, Christopher
Hockey, Matthew J.
Hogan, Andrew J.
Holderfield, Culley
Holton, Dave
Howells, Ann
Huchu, Tendai
Hudson, Rick
Huffman, A. J.
Huguenin, Timothy G.
Huskey, Jason L.
Irascible, Dr. I. M.
Jaggers, J. David
James, Christopher
Johnson, Beau
Johnson, Moctezuma
Johnson, Zakariah
Jones, D. S.
Jones, Erin J.
Jones, Mark
Kabel, Dana
Kaplan, Barry Jay
Kay, S.
Kempka, Hal
Kerins, Mike
Keshigian, Michael
Kevlock, Mark Joseph
King, Michelle Ann
Kirk, D.
Knott, Anthony
Koenig, Michael
Korpon, Nik
Kovacs, Norbert
Kovacs, Sandor
Kowalcyzk, Alec
Krafft, E. K.
Lacks, Lee Todd
Lang, Preston
Larkham, Jack
La Rosa, F. Michael
Leasure, Colt
Leatherwood, Roger
Lees, Arlette
Lees, Lonni
Leins, Tom
Lemming, Jennifer
Lerner, Steven M
Lewis, Cynthia Ruth
Lewis, LuAnn
Lifshin, Lyn
Liskey, Tom Darin
Lodge, Oliver
Lopez, Aurelio Rico III
Lorca, Aurelia
Lovisi, Gary
Lucas, Gregory E.
Lukas, Anthony
Lynch, Nulty
Lyon, Hillary
Lyons, Matthew
Mac, David
MacArthur, Jodi
Malone, Joe
Mann, Aiki
Manzolillo, Nicholas
Marcius, Cal
Marrotti, Michael
Mason, Wayne
Mattila, Matt
McAdams, Liz
McCartney, Chris
McDaris, Catfish
McFarlane, Adam Beau
McGinley, Chris
McGinley, Jerry
McElhiney, Sean
McKim, Marci
McMannus, Jack
McQuiston, Rick
Mellon, Mark
Memi, Samantha
Miles, Marietta
Miller, Max
Monson, Mike
Mooney, Christopher P.
Morgan, Bill W.
Moss, David Harry
Mullins, Ian
Mulvihill, Michael
Muslim, Kristine Ong
Nardolilli, Ben
Nelson, Trevor
Nessly, Ray
Nester, Steven
Neuda, M. C.
Newell, Ben
Newman, Paul
Nielsen, Ayaz
Ogurek, Douglas J.
Ortiz, Sergio
Pagel, Briane
Park, Jon
Parr, Rodger
Parrish, Rhonda
Partin-Nielsen, Judith
Perez, Juan M.
Perez, Robert Aguon
Peterson, Ross
Petroziello, Brian
Pettie, Jack
Petyo, Robert
Phillips, Matt
Picher, Gabrielle
Pierce, Rob
Pietrzykowski, Marc
Plath, Rob
Pointer, David
Powell, David
Power, Jed
Powers, M. P.
Praseth, Ram
Prusky, Steve
Pruitt, Eryk
Purfield, M. E.
Purkis, Gordon
Quinlan, Joseph R.
Quinn, Frank
Rabas, Kevin
Ram, Sri
Rapth, Sam
Ravindra, Rudy
Renney, Mark
reutter, g emil
Rhatigan, Chris
Richardson, Travis
Richey, John Lunar
Ridgeway, Kevin
Ritchie, Salvadore
Robinson, John D.
Robinson, Kent
Rodgers, K. M.
Roger, Frank
Rose, Mandi
Rose, Mick
Rosenberger, Brian
Rosenblum, Mark
Rosmus, Cindy
Ruhlman, Walter
Rutherford, Scotch
Savage, Jack
Sayles, Betty J.
Schauber, Karen
Schneeweiss, Jonathan
Schraeder, E. F.
Schumejda, Rebecca
See, Tom
Sethi, Sanjeev
Sexton, Rex
Seymour, J. E.
Shaikh, Aftab Yusuf
Sheagren, Gerald E.
Shepherd, Robert
Sim, Anton
Simmler, T. Maxim
Simpson, Henry
Sinisi, J. J.
Sixsmith, JD
Slagle, Cutter
Slaviero, Susan
Sloan, Frank
Smith, Brian J.
Smith, Ben
Smith, C.R.J.
Smith, Copper
Smith, Paul
Smith, Stephanie
Smith, Willie
Smuts, Carolyn
Snethen, Daniel G.
Snoody, Elmore
Sojka, Carol
Solender, Michael J.
Sparling, George
Spicer, David
Squirrell, William
Stewart, Michael S.
Stickel, Anne
Stolec, Trina
Stryker, Joseph H.
Stucchio, Chris
Succre, Ray
Sullivan, Thomas
Swanson, Peter
Swartz, Justin A.
Sweet, John
Tarbard, Grant
Taylor, J. M.
Thompson, John L.
Thompson, Phillip
Tillman, Stephen
Titus, Lori
Tivey, Lauren
Tobin, Tim
Tu, Andy
Ullerich, Eric
Valent, Raymond A.
Valvis, James
Vilhotti, Jerry
Waldman, Dr. Mel
Walsh, Patricia
Walters, Luke
Ward, Emma
Weber, R.O.
Weil, Lester L.
White, Judy Friedman
White, Robb
White, Terry
Wilsky, Jim
Wilson, Robley
Wilson, Tabitha
Woodland, Francis
Young, Mark
Yuan, Changming
Zackel, Fred
Zafiro, Frank
Zapata, Angel
Zee, Carly
Zimmerman, Thomas

Fire Down Below

 

by Ian Mullins

 

 

Sometimes my cocks a plastic cigarette lighter
you can buy on the street
half a dozen for a pound;
I can flick the switch all night long
without ever striking a spark.

Other days it
s my old digital watch
with the red laser display
so sharp I could tell time through my shirt,
no more tiny stubborn hands
oiling the hours away.

But now I tell time
by how firm I am when I wake;
if it
s soft like a kitten warm in its sandbox
I know its 2 A.M.
and there still time to steal a little sleep
from the streetlight
hanging its sorry head outside my window;
but if its hard and cold
like a poker chip the first time you roll it
through your fingers
I know it
s 5:30 A.M.
and the boiler is priming to spout its heat

 

the same way Ill prime mine,
working hard to beat the 6 A.M. deadline
before I crawl out of bed
and jerk through the sexless daylight
where balls are nailed to walls


and if I open up my pants
to read the hour
laser-sharp in bright green veins
all I
ll find is an old windup watch
that doesn
t even remember
what it means to tell the time.

 

 

Scalp

 

by Ian Mullins

 

 

Every first time
is the same; ants crawling
the length of my skin
as though sizing me up
for scalping, yellow needle
fat as a newborn baby child
waiting as a loaded gun
waits; already the barrel
smells of the bullet,
the trigger finger cocked,
liquid bullets soft as water

heavy as gold

 

can you lift it,
can you bear the weight,
can you scalp your own skin
once again?

 

 

Bottled Up

 

by Ian Mullins

 

 

I can talk to an empty bottle
lounging on a wall
in the cheap city sunlight
shiny as half a credit card


read everything it has to say,
label on the front
competition on the back
the way the long sun melts
its plastic to soft ice cream,
the tales told by the flies
who shit down its mouth
or buzz inside its stomach,
the tremble of its skin
when a truck goes by
or a little girl wall-walking
steps over its head


and for a moment it
s midnight
at 2P.M.;
there are shadows in bottle-world
warmer than the skin

on the back of your hand
as you lift another bottle to your lips,
drip the last drips
like drops of sunlight
from a melting sun
then say something human
that me and the bottle
cooling our fingers
now the sun has begun
it
s long slow dive

will never find a summer
we can never understand.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Kiss This

 

by Ian Mullins

 

 

You can kiss it
lick it
bite it
whip it
but don
t fuck it
whatever you do;

when it comes to cream
I like chocolate
I like strawberry
I like toffee and ginger
banana and mint;

vanilla me
and I
ll spit
in your face.

 

 

 

Whats the Beef?

 

by Ian Mullins

 

 

Dont go there
man; there are places
where secrets
hide their secrets
and dreamers
distill their dreams;
places where shadows
are made out of stone
and snowfalls are cut diamonds
sharpening the night
like a knife through paper.


Through those cuts
you
ll see things
that don
t want to be seen;
even knowing
they are alive
would kill them like a live bug
you find under your shoe;


but there
s no way that bee
can ever lug its candy

home, never know that

home is just a dream
scratched on the side of a snowflake
melting beneath
your very first breath,
hot dry hands
beneath your very first dress,


so don
t go there,
man: not unless you
re dreaming
of never coming back.

 

 






dirtywhitegirl.jpg

Dirty White Girl

 

by Ian Mullins

 

 

 

Fingers reek of manila,
but I close them on the umbrella
where Donna
s long fingers
tipped with black varnish
must have closed

when she walked out into the rain:

but halfway cross the street
I imagine she stopped,
lowered the black shield
and opened her clothes,
and while the green light filled up with water
the wetness poured down
over her dirty white breasts
and washed the day
s filth

deep into her skin.

No wonder she smiled
when she brought back my umbrella,
wet from the rain glistening the jewels
buried in her nails, damp ghosts


I press my stubby digits over
to jerk the same button, a diamond in the wood.
Watching the black shield
catch the white seed;
cold stars firing up the night sky.

 

 

 


dontdoit.jpg
Art by Hillary Lyon 2017

Dont Do It, It Aint Worth It


 


By Ian Mullins


 


 


Ball me into clay
and make me a skinny white boy
who lives in New Orleans
walks into bars bare-chested
hoops burning through his nipples
who fucks black men in the ass
and white girls in the mouth,



lives in a stolen room
in a condemned house
and writes as hard as he comes,
spraying black and white words


over the walls, the floor,
the ceiling
then scrapes it all off
packs it in a box
sends it to New York City


where some fat guy
living in a cubicle
not much bigger than the coffin
he already bought
smears the hot words
over his skin
until it burns his suit off
like brandy smoking a hot sauce


 


and soon hes nothing but bones
strutting New York streets
looking for a hooker to hose down,
a life that
s worth living.


 


 



Dropping the Ball

 

by Ian Mullins

 

 

 

coming out

hopeless

useless

no good to anyone

 

the last taboo
unwritten in ink
below names
even the people
they went to school with
only remember
as shadows on demolished walls

 

the bodies that made up
the numbers
the hands that dropped
the ball

 

the only face
in the class photograph
who couldn
t fake a smile
long enough
for history to say

 

welcome home . . .

now what was your name again?

 

 

 

Ian Mullins bails out from Liverpool England. The chapbook, Almost Human (Original Plus), was released from custody last year, as was Number 1 Red, a novel about pro-wrestling and property wars. The music-themed poetry collection, Laughter in the Shape of a Guitar (UB), is still twanging on the corner on your street.

In Association with Fossil Publications