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John L. Thompson
Like
a slow motion death scene
He
found painful solace
under
the wheels of a Ford.
The
wife hysterical instead over lost pot.
The
driver did not know
and
was caught, then given several years
to
think about his sins,
in
some corner of Dante’s hell.
The
grave is unattended in a far corner
of
a backyard field 10 years now,
filled
with an ocean of household trash.
The
wife, hooked on meth, swigs a brew
and
could care less.
The Big Nothing-1994
John
L. Thompson
We
lost one of our own.
The
armored driver shot with an AR15
by
two wannabes who hid in the hills
and
he slumped over the wheel leaking.
The
other fired off all his rounds,
into
the hillside where he thought they were
but
he was sleepy and missed.
The
perpetrators vanished like apparitions.
The
van was shredded,
Blood-soaked
dollars blew lazily in the breeze.
The
news crews all over it.
FBI
played with the change in their pockets.
The
years have passed
It’s
a forgotten segment.
Never
solved
and
it evolved into a big nothing.
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Art by Aisling Kerins © 2012 |
Dog Days
John L. Thompson
Summer time. The sun’s burning bright, iced brews in the cooler
by the swimming pool and the buzz has just kicked in. Linda’s high as a
kite from a few lines of coke. She practices her old stripper moves using the
patio overhang support as a pole to a Gordon Lightfoot tune blaring from the radio.
Rufus, a Heeler-Rottweiler mix, is bouncing around the yard chasing flies or whatever is crawling on the ground. Life is good.
The doorbell rings in rapid successions.
I get up slowly, I’ll have to finish watching Linda doing her strip tease in a minute and begrudgingly answer
the door.
It’s Mr. Peterson.
“You!” The tone has a bad vibe.
“I’m Sorry?”
“Your mutt!”
“Rufus?”
“Yeah, you dumb shit! Rufus!
I had to bury my cat after your dog mauled the shit out of it and the god-damned digging up my yard! What the hell is it with this infatuation with my yard? This
is the third time!”
El Dorado subdivision, where we live, is thirty-five square acres with
only six houses built in it. Rufus hops the fence at night and roams the area
but for some reason he likes Peterson’s yard the best. I built the fence
five foot high, placed railroad ties at the base and still he manages to get out. “I’m
sorry, really. I thought he was in the house all night.”
“Bull shit! He was out killing my cat!”
“Look I’m sorry. I’ll pay for the damages.”
“You damned right and I’ll be calling the county dog catcher.”
My
gut tightens up. “Look, really, I’ll pay for the damages…in
cash. Just let me run to the bank but please don’t call the county.”
He
fumes a few seconds, eyes me through those thick glasses. “Cash. It better be cash. $1500 bucks to be exact for past and present
damages.”
$1500 bucks to keep my buddy Rufus alive. “I’ll
run to the bank and be right over.”
I
throw on my sandals, hop in the Jeep and haul ass for the bank. Rufus would be
just another mutt to any one else. For some reason I had an attachment to the
damned dog and there was no way I could let the county dog catcher get involved. This paying off Peterson would only last
so long before he was banging at my door again and more money would change hands.
Too
many what-ifs. Best to cut to the chase.
I get the money and drive back, but before heading over to Peterson’s, I stop by my garage. Linda saunters in, hips swaying to some imaginary tune rolling around in her head. “Whatcha doing, babe?”
I
find the new bundle of clothes line in a cabinet. “Nothing doll. Going down to the Peterson place and be right back.”
She
shrugs, eyes heavy and inhales on a cigarette. “Make it quick, I’m
coming off my high.”
“Be
right back.” I take a knife, cut a section of clothesline, cram it in my
pocket and drive over to Peterson’s.
Peterson
is outside, leaning on a shovel, trying to smooth out the areas Rufus had dug up. “I
was debating about calling the county if you hadn’t showed up.”
“I’m
glad you didn’t.” I show him the money clutched in my hand. “Can I have a receipt for this?”
He
gives a thin smile. “Come inside and I’ll get a receipt for you.”
The
inside of his house is immaculate, clean to the point of obsessive and the swamp coolers are running full blast. He spent a few minutes looking through a desk and finally produces a receipt book. He lives alone and I heard he owed back property taxes to the county.
I
hand over the cash.
Peterson
takes it, turns his back, thumbing through the bills and my gut wrenches tight.
Without thinking, I wrap the clothesline around his throat and give it hell.
It
took a few minutes longer than I thought possible. When a person fights for their
very life, they can summon up incredible strength they never realized they had. I
had a bigger concern for Rufus’ well being. After several minutes, breathless,
I’m standing over his corpse.
“Sorry
Mr. Peterson.” Now what the hell to do next?
I
look out the back patio door and see the septic tank cover. The idea forms like
waves on an ocean. He was small and thin enough.
***
A
year later, Linda and Lorraine, her new friend, are doing a drunken strip tease to Canned Heat’s ’Let’s
Work Together’ blaring from the CD player in the living room. Their only
audience is Rufus and me. The door bell rings a few times with a degree of urgency.
I
open the door and it’s the new neighbor Mr. Bowes puffing on a huge cigar. After
Peterson disappeared, the county confiscated the property then put the place up for auction for back taxes. Mr. Bowes, a retired Teamster from New York, ended up buying it.
“Hey,
your dog keeps getting out and shitting in my yard. His piss and digging around
just killed off a section. I just had that sod laid in.” His voice reminds me of a New Jersey mobster that you see on those mob movies and its got me scared.
“Sorry.”
“Well
no sorry about it. I got a landscaping crew coming out tomorrow to fix that mess
then your going to pay them.”
My
gut wrenches tight like rubber bands.
He
blows a thick cloud of cigar smoke in my face.
“I
guess I’ll have to pay.”
“Good. I expect that money tomorrow and you better keep your dog in your damned
yard or its going to end up dead. Capish?” I pause. The rubber bands tighten up.
He
stabbed the cigar at me. “You hear me?”
“Yeah
I hear you.”
He
stormed off like an ancient tugboat belching smoke in its wake, softly cursing. I
knew what I had to do. I went to the garage, found a claw hammer and another
piece of clothesline. Mr. Bowes was a big man and he wasn‘t going to fit
in the septic tank as neat as Peterson had. I found a hacksaw, spare blades and
a hatchet.
Rufus
sits there looking at me with those big orange-brown eyes.
Shades of
Truth
John L. Thompson
The Los
Lunas Police cars had blocked off the ends of the street. The area was taped off with crime scene tape just like textbook. I flashed a badge and the perimeter officer let me roll on through. The media wagons were parked on the outer perimeter. The news
crews were aiming their cameras around like loaded rifles firing off live images for the five o‘clock news.
Parking
the squad car, I exhaled a sharp breath and killed the engine. I rubbed the corners
of my eyes feeling the crusted sleet that had gathered in the corners. They burned
like hot sand had been poured over the dried orbs. I had already worked a twelve-hour
shift and this mess was along my way home. The air conditioner moaned to a stop
and slowly the outside heat began radiating through the windows. This is the
worst part. This is the part of the job when I get to see victims at their last
and worst moments of life. I get to see how they fought to keep what little life they had but it was taken from them by brute
force.
I stepped
out from the car and winced. The smell of rot hung heavy in the humid air like
a thick film that covers ones soul and chips away at the innocence. A street
cop was standing nearby. I knew he played on the Police Athletic League baseball
team with a keen interest on helping the kids but now he was looking uninterested in what was going on around him.
“Where’s
Joe?” I asked.
“Down
with the vic.”
“Male,
Female?”
“Female.”
“Any
other details? All I got was that a body had been found and to stop here to help
out if I can.”
“Naw,
nothing.”
I walked
down the incline to a group of detectives and crime scene guys huddled around the victim.
A crime scene tech was carefully working the area with a camera, taking photos of every possible piece of evidence. Joe was there, knelt down beside the victim.
He was a good detective, rock solid on finding the most minute of evidence and catching the bad guys. But under that tough guy façade was a man that was crumbling under the weight from years of collecting
the visions of dead victims. “Joe.”
He looked
up. I could see the strain on his face.
“Mick.”
“What’s
the info here?”
“A
couple of joggers came by and saw the victim laying here. They thought it was
strange that the leg was folded up in the air and sticking out above the weeds so they called it in when they saw she was
dead.”
“They
couldn’t smell the stench?”
“I
guess not.”
Looking
back up the embankment, I followed the trail of flattened riverweed and jungle grass that ran along the Rio Grande. I was thinking she was chased down the incline, slipped and fell here.
Her killer must have chased after her, pounced and killed her. I removed
a pair of rubber gloves and pulled them over my hands. “How long?”
“About
forty-eight hours from what I’m guessing.” Joe could tell about these
things. He’d been doing this for a long time and knew what signs to look
for to determine time of death.
“Any
ID?”
“Found
this up the embankment near the road.” He held up a plastic baggie with
a New Mexico driver’s license.
With a
gloved hand, I took it and read the name out loud. “Alicia Plutero. 610 Tumbleweed Road.” I look over
at the victim’s face and compare the driver license photo with the dead victim in front of me. I tried to ignore the water bugs crawling over her face and in and out of her open mouth. Her cloudy orb peered off into the Rio Grande River and the flies buzzed about in an angry swarm, lapping
at the last bit of moisture from the exposed skin. It was hard to tell if it
was her or not. Since she was laying face down.
Most of her blood had settled in the low points in the body, which produced skin bruising. It looked like someone had worked her over with a two-by-four. I
was sure though it was Alicia Plutero. “Nineteen.”
Joe looks at me with a puzzled look. “What?”
“Nineteen. She’s nineteen years old.”
Buzz, the other detective standing nearby, shook his head. “Was.”
“Joe, what about any signs of COD?”
“Thinking maybe she was stabbed.” Carefully with a gloved
hand, he gently poked at several ragged tears in her sweatshirt. He folded the
edges of fabric over to reveal a hole filled with congealed blood. “Could be a gunshot, though. It’s possible that the gun might’ve had a faulty barrel or it was just worn out and the bullets
tumbled but we aren’t finding any shell casings. We really won’t
know until the coroner’s report.”
“What about any indications of sexual assault?” Buzz knelt
down and poked at the pants leg.
Joe stood up and walked off, shaking his head. Buzz gave a puzzled look
and then looked into my eyes. “What’s wrong with him? He’s still got a crime scene to process.”
“Just feeling overwhelmed. He’s got a helluva case load, give
him a moment to compose himself.” I stepped outside the yellow crime scene
tape and lit up a cigarette and followed after him.
I found Joe standing by the riverbank, leaning against a giant
cottonwood tree. He was sucking deep on a cigarette. The afternoon sun cast a dark shadow across his features and I couldn’t see anything but his one
eye, which was narrowed to an unconcerned slit. The orb rolled over and looked
at me. “I tell you what, Jack. Half
the time I wanna kill the sons of bitches murdering these girls and children. If
I could have a few moments alone with the killers, I’d make damned sure the bastard would pay the hard way.” He flicked the butt away down into the riverbank’s edge. The red end extinguished itself in the thick waters with an angry hiss.
“I’m about fed up with this shit, truth be known. I been doing
this damned job for fifteen years and I still remember every victim I ever saw.”
“Everyone?”
He paused, lit up another cigarette. The small flame leapt to life from
his Zippo and he inhaled deep. “Every last one. Including the kids that never had a chance.” Smoke chugged
from thick lips as he spoke like an engine with a busted piston ring. “How
the fuck you cope with this shit? Every time we gotta work a case here recently,
you’re as cool as ever. Don’t seeing these dead people bother you?”
I thought a long moment. “I have developed a coping mechanism.”
Snorting, he leaned forward. “There ain’t no coping with this. A few weeks ago you wanted to quit this shit and now you’re as cool as ice. What gives?”
“I picked up a new hobby. There is a silver lining in shades of
truth.” I tilted my head. Some
things I was just not going to say. Suffice to say, I had found a coping mechanism.
“Everything is hidden in shade of truth and everyone lies. Just
like fucking lawyers or politicians or big oil executives. They all lie.”
“Are you serious about getting your hands on these killers. I mean,
you said you would want to kill some of these murderers.”
He thought a long moment, watching the sun’s rays reflecting off the river surface like diamonds shot from the
end of a gun. We had worked some damned shitty cases together and felt kinship
in that we could talk about these things. “Yeah, I would. Just for once, I would like to make the killers feel just as helpless as the victims. Prison is just a luxury resort and they don’t deserve that. You remember that twelve-year-old girl
murder victim last month? The one we found at that old campground? Or that two-year-old
boy the parents buried in their back yard all because they wanted to get high on crack without a squalling kid around? I’ve been thinking about them a lot lately and it bothers me. What sick fuck goes and kills a kid?”
I knew about that one all too well, the twelve-year-old girl that is. I
had been working that case. “Maybe you need to talk to the departmental
shrink?”
“Hey, fuck you.”
I held up a hand. “Just a thought, sorry.”
“I ain’t having a paper-pushing shit bag bitch with a PHD to tell me I’m cracked, you understand? I got a few more years of this shit and I’m done.” He walked to the riverbank and blew out another lung full of smoke.
“We gotta catch this asshole.”
I nodded. I wasn’t sure of which ‘asshole’ he was referring
to. There were so many open cases at the present moment and each detective was
overwhelmed with their own caseloads. “Maybe pick up a hobby to help.”
“Hobby? Like what?”
“Fishing or fixing up an old car or something.”
“Is that how you ‘cope’?”
“I have picked up a new hobby you can say.”
“Like what?”
I thought for a moment. “It’s like an art project.”
“Like what? Painting? Writing?”
“Maybe you can come over later and see for yourself. I guarantee
it will inspire you to learn to cope with these homicides in a different perspective.”
He looked out over the wide Rio Grande River. “Maybe. You got any Crown Royal?”
“Always.”
“I might have to take you up on that offer.” He seemed to
relax for a moment then changed the subject. “Have you found anything on
Ronnie Sanchez?”
I had been working on the Sanchez case for a few weeks now and things were coming together but like everything in life,
it takes time. I also knew this was a bone of contention with Joe in that a child
was the victim. “No, nothing but a few pieces here and there.”
He shook his head. “Another shit ball that needs to be caught and
we gotta get to him quick. It’s just strange that fucker just up and disappeared. Anyway, Let me finish this shit up. You
headed home now?”
“Yes, I have that art project I’m working on that needs some detail work.”
“Okay, I’ll call you later then.”
Walking back up to my squad car, I thought long and hard on current events. Truths
are often found at the end of a long night. For some it’s found in old
age within the throes of lung-clogging pneumonia in some nursing home while wallowing in a shit-soaked diaper. For others it’s found at the end of a gun or the sun glare off of a steel blade. Then again, sometimes it’s the gentle thrust of a needle loaded with strange concoctions and life
floats away into the dark abyss.
For others it ends much worse. Nineteen-year-old Alicia Plutero had found
her end of the truth. I went to the squad car, slid behind the wheel, and fired
it off. I let the air conditioner kick in for several minutes to wash away the
stench of decay and the humid heat before throwing it in gear and pulling out into traffic.
I lit up a cigarette. The visions of the past rose up through the thin
twisting, tendrils of tobacco smoke. My mind drifted to Ronnie Sanchez and the
events surrounding those long weeks ago.
Jennifer was just the next-door kid. Cute as a button, smart for her age
and always loved riding her bike up and down my street. Never bothered a soul. She was twelve years old when
she disappeared and her mother begged and pleaded for her daughter’s safe return on the local television stations. I had been handed the assignment but had the gut feeling at the time that Jennifer
was gone from this world a long time before her mother’s plea went out over the air.
It was a gut feeling developed over years from working as a street cop and a Homicide Detective. I promised, damn well promised the mother that I would find out who was responsible and bring Jennifer
home. Even though she was not related, it struck a deep chord within me. If this were my daughter, I’d damn well do something about it. Her father had gone to Iraq a few years back and died in some town that no one could pronounce from an
IED blast. The mother had it rough in a bad way but was just trying to survive
and cope. A few days later, we got the news and it’s the bad kind. They found Jennifer in some weed choked open field, lined with cottonwood trees, that
had once been a camp ground area back around the nineteen-thirties. The evidence
pointed right to Ronnie Sanchez because the idiot had dropped his wallet at the scene.
Ronnie Sanchez was just another gear-jamming truck driver who snorted
lines of white powder, guzzled booze by the gallon and banged the broads as fast as he could like the world was at its end. He was a genuine party animal, it was said.
Somewhere along the way he took a fancy to young girls who were way too young.
He had resorted to kidnapping and having his way with them for a few days before disposing of them like yesterday’s
garbage along the side of the freeway or long forgotten open areas that are in vast abundance here in New Mexico. We had managed to connect the dots and figured out he had murdered three girls so far. The hunt was on but days dragged into weeks and no one knew where Ronnie was hiding.
And then I caught the break I was looking for.
Under the breaking light of dawn, the red and blue strobe lights from my cruiser flashed throughout the night like
a disco ball. Only the visions of dead children were dancing in the shadows. On that rain-soaked morning, just as my shift was ending, I got a call of a
suspicious man in the neighborhood looking in on little old ladies through their bedroom windows. I debated about taking the call but was glad I did. I found
him passed out on the banks of an irrigation ditch, stone cold drunk with an empty jug of Wild Turkey lying nearby.
The rain began picking up in momentum. I stood over Sanchez with my Glock
.40 leveled on him and finger ready on the radio button to call it in. I wasn’t doing anything but watching him when
the idea began to take form. What to do here?
I knew at that point, I had enough of child killers and dealing with the aftermath and screaming and crying parents. Lines were crossed every day. Politicians
and fucking oil executives committed far worse atrocities on a daily basis than what I was thinking of doing. The rain fell in a steady rhythm. I was contemplating on what
to do next but I was actually trying to get the nerve up to go through with what I was thinking. I had visions of Jennifer riding her bike up and down the street singing a long forgotten song.
This time around, Sanchez had chosen the wrong girl.
Perhaps I should have called it in just for moralities’ sake, but I knew what would happen on the legal end of
it. I couldn’t chance a parole release in ten years or even fifty. Three dead girls was enough and there was not going to be a fourth. I dragged him back to the squad car and popped the trunk. Looking
around, I didn’t see anyone watching and tossed him in and drove home. I
tied him up in the basement and cut the lights out to let him stew for the day until I figured out what to do next. The actions were not long in coming.
We’ve had a lot of fun since and it’s turned into a great coping mechanism.
I maneuvered the sedan down my street, half expecting to see Jennifer riding her bike, and aimed straight for the front
of my house. I threw the cruiser in park, killed the engine and lit up another
cigarette. I’ve tried quitting countless times but due to the stress of
the job, it’s just too damned hard. I looked around. The neighborhood I live in is pretty quiet. It’s a slice
of the American Dream where kids should be able to play without consequences, but unfortunately this is not the reality of
things. Occasionally the monsters find a way into paradise. I opened the door to the cruiser and walked slowly up to the front door, fumbled with the lock for a moment
before stepping inside and paused mid-step.
I could hear him crying like a bitch, pleading and begging God to help him. I sat down in the kitchen waiting for nightfall
and braced for the upcoming event. Slowly I took off my jacket and duty-belt
and hung them across the back of the kitchen chair.
I inhaled a long, last drag off my cigarette and eyed the tool that helped me cope.
Picking up the straight razor off the kitchen table, I examined the blade under the dull yellow light. It needed a good sharpening from being heavily used for the past few nights but it will do for the task
at hand. He cried out again and I went and opened the door to the basement, wondering
if this was how he felt. In full control of one person’s life to mold and
direct as he saw fit. I heard him bellowing in the darkness to be cut loose,
but I had other things in mind. I closed the door and let him stew a bit longer
in his piss-soaked fears. The first night I took off his toes, the second, his
fingers. I’ve done everything possible to keep the bastard alive for these
past several weeks. Last night, I cut a nice section of flesh off his back and
left it hanging around his waist like a Scottish kilt. To keep him from bleeding out, I wrapped him up in saran wrap to help
keep him alive for tonight’s festivities.
Looking across the table where my duty shirt hung across the chair back, I watched the light in the room gleaming off
my duty badge. The words ‘To Protect and Serve’ blazed across the
table like a hot knife. At one time I believed in right and wrong, black and
white. I was known to have a strong ethical and moral stance on cases I was working. But time has shattered all boundaries and the bodies and killers kept coming. All it took was some dirty-assed lawyers
and politicians to get in there and mix the borders creating large gray areas like a legal Picasso. I saw killers walking free or serving a few years only to see them get out and kill again. I guess I can cross the same lines and enter the shades of truth or grow old and bitter like Joe. I winced at the thought of him living out his golden years with his meager pension,
being haunted by visions of victims. I knew he would come over soon, so I went
into the kitchen, got the bottle of Crown Royal and a couple of clean glasses and set them on the kitchen table.
If things went right, I was going to have Joe as a partner in this ‘art project’ for some years to come. I think it might help him mentally in the long run.
The truth is, there are predators living in the shadows of society just waiting to snatch up a fresh victim to feed
upon. That’s just the laws of nature at work but sooner or later those
predators will learn there’s bigger ones roaming the area hunting them. I
had plans to be the biggest predator of them all. Half the job is going to be
hunting them down and making them bastards feel the same way they made their victims feel during their last moments on earth. I hoped that Joe would come along for this grand adventure.
It was time. I mashed out the cigarette in an ashtray on the table. I had to get things ready. I opened the
basement door, stepped through and closed the door behind me. I held the straight
razor with a tight grip while whistling a forgotten melody to calm my nerves of anticipation.
I would have to save Joe a piece of the action. I knew he hated child-killers
more than anything. If things went right, it was going to be another long night
for Sanchez and us.
John Thompson currently lives in New Mexico
and has poetry and short stories published or forthcoming in Best Served Cold: An Eye for an Eye Anthology, Adobe
Walls, Yellow Mama, Heavy Hands Ink, Indigo Rising Magazine, Camel Saloon, Science Fiction Trails and
on the official Philip Jose Farmer web site.
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